Tough Week

This week has been a very weird one. I think that with all the pregnancies around me and all the people who have just had babies has made me think of Gabe a lot more than I usually do. I truly believe that I have somewhat accepted Gabe's death however I do at times get the knot in my stomach when I hear someone close to me is expecting. I am happy for these people but I just wish it was me or wish I had Gabe with me now. I then start thinking about what we would be doing with him and how my friends who have kids would probably be hanging out more. I sorta think that they are in a different stage of life than I am even though I was just at that stage about a year ago.